Finally receive the photo for the graduation but they only send four. Suppose to have more. But better than nothing.

Haha that is me!!!! Should have smile.

Some people are juz damn bastard and evil. I don't even know why they exist. People sick still force people to work. I really damnn forgetful sia, keep forgetting to eat and bring my medicine. That why still having fever. What to do leh coz I ask for it.

Anyway confirm no longer stay in le which mean I confirm will gain weight. Shit man. MUZ CONTROL!!!! Most of us are split up le which mean no more fun moment for us. But lucky still in the same camp.

Tml evening after book oput may be going back to NYP for a swim if my fever is gone. Thursday watch movie with the 3 musketeers. Then friday gg back to NYP with Jack and Chuan wei coz friday is my leave. Finally can apply one day leave. So who want to jio me out muz faster leh. Haha.

I miss you. I duno what will happen to me if you are gone. I realise I can't live without you. (Haha what are you guys thinking? I am talking my kinder bueno.) Two weeks without kinder bueno is like hell to me.

I want to watch marley and me. Who want to watch with me?? I pay for the ticket. Haha.

Really regret playing and swimming in the heavy rain yesterday. Never think of the consequence. Having a bad flu and high fever now. The feeling is really terrible even after taking my medicine. Shit man. Stay at home the whole day coz I dun really have the strength to walk around. And tml is my first day at the base so I dun want to take mc. Muz set good impression.

I am really starting to miss AFS le. Miss my bunk, my bed, my pillow etc. Not to mention the people there. I really wish I could stay there longer. Hope I can enjoy myself at the new place too like what I did in AFS.

Sometime you need to lose something before you really know you have lose something. Read that from a book. Dun really noe what it mean until recently.

Haha I think this is the most enjoyable week in 2009 for me. All of the fun things happening. It's going to be a long post.

OK shall start from tuesday first. Tuesday night was the last night of staying in at AFS for us so we decide to have some fun. First we play a trick on bernard. We wait for him to bath at around 9pm. Then we secretly took away all his clothes, underwear and towel so he will have nothing when he finish bathing. And I was very evil. I pour some powder at him too. After that we return him everything. Then Daniel was damn evil la. He wait for bernard to finish wearing his clothes and pant and then he suddenly splash one pail of water at him. Ahd he did that twice. We were all laughing like hell. After that we did that to class 1 IC too.Then we use marker to draw at each other. When we were about to sleep they were damn evil. They switch off all the light and pour lot of powder on my bed while I was away. Becoz I thought they wanted to sleep liao so I did not turn on the light. When I went to my bed I smell the powder so immediately I knew they were playing a prank on me. Lucky I am smart enough not to fall for it.

Thursday went to cheer Michelle for the tennis tournament. She was damn pro sia. She keep winning la. See I got a great teacher. And I have to wake up damn early in the morning to travel to AFS. At night meet Pear to collect my transcript coz I lost mine and ask her to help me collect it frm NYP. Thx alot.

Friday we were very high in the morning. We were joking and playing happily. Even the graduation ceremony does not scare us or make us nervous. And yeah I receive two certificate coz of my outstanding performance. After the ceremony, we were feeling very low coz it almost time to book out and we will say goodbye to AFS and each other. I was really damn sad coz I really enjoy myself there. I think out of all the places I have stay, I like it here the most. I like the guys here. I enjoy their companion. They are really great guys to hang out with. They are what I call true friend. And they will stick by you no matter what. When I am out with them, I can crap alot and truly enjoy myself throughout the whole outing. Unlike when I am out with my poly guys friend (excluding damei, ermei and xiaomei) I tend to only listen to what they had to say and can keep quiet all days long. To be honest I am bored too. I am not saying that my poly guys friend are not good but it just that we don't have anything in common and sometimes I feel that they are immature. And who know they may even backstab me without me even realising it. If you ask me to choose who is the real buddy I would choose my AFS friends.

After booking out when to meet damei, ermei and xiaomei. Soooo sorry that I was late coz I book out quite late coz of all the admin things I need to settle before I leave. We went to nyny at suntec to eat. I order the seafood platter for 2 and share with ermei. Then xiaomei was so "KIND" sia she help me crack the crab shells. Until I keep eating the shells. Not to mention she took some ugly photo of me as well as ermei and want to post on her blog. After that went to shop for my bag coz my current bag is too small. I need a bigger one. So in the end went to PUMA to buy the bag. After that went HMV. And xiaomei is so into twilight. Went home after that.

Today went to sentosa with the guys. Really an enjoyable day for me even though it rain heavily. Daniel took us to the hawker centre to eat some beef noodle. Really nice and delicious. Actually I think most of the good food can be found at hawker centre instead of shopping centre. When we reach sentos, it was damn crowded then it start to rain. Haha me and daniel dun really care about it and contiue swimming in the rain. But it start to have lightning so we quickly find shelter. We wait so long until we decide to leave the place. And that was when I realise that have lots of injuries thank to the soccer and friskbee games. Then we went chomp chomp to eat. Eat until so damn full sia and it cost us less than 10 bucks. After that went PS and search for the cd xiaomei ask me to find for her. But unfortunately they say out of stock. After that went to play LAN and was damn fun. On the way home, my slipper spoilt and was so embarrase sia coz it happen in the middle of the road and the cars honk at me. Lucky I got bring extra shoes. Reach home around 11 plus.

Monday is a new start for me. Will I like it there?? Haiz.

Sianz this is the last week at AFS le. Dun feel like leaving the place coz of all the fun and good memories that I have there. As well as the people that I have know. We will only be sleeping there for another 3 nights and by wednesday morning we have to return the bunks to them. Which mean no more staying in for us. But look on the bright side can meet up with friends for dinner after work. But it also mean I will have to wake up damn early on thursday and friday morning to travel to AFS from my home for the rehearsal and the graduation ceremony. I am really feeling emo now. Seriously, I like it there and I don't mind staying there. Coz the place will make me forget about unhappy event.

Anyway yesterday meet up with Vincent and Pear. Vincent juz broke up with his gf. Cheer up man it's not the end of the world. There is always a more better one out there waiting for you. Then Pear very fuuny and cute sia. She gave me a box of strawberry. Then I ask her why she gave me strawberry instead of the usual kinder bueno. Haha she say eating too much chocolate is bad for my health and specially I keep having chest pain recently. So she buy me fruit instead coz it is more healthy. Since my favourite fruit is strawberry so she buy me that. She damn thoughtful sia. Haha so I have decide to stop eating chocolate from now on. I told my bro and my mum to stop buying choco for me le. NO MORE CHOCOALATE FOR ME FROM NOW ON.

Friday night went to celebrate khoo yu bdae. And then so few turn up lor and he made it sound like he invite alot of people. Haha I am smart man. Coz I know there will be some screw up so I had my dinner with michelle and dennis first. And indeed I was right we start dinner very late coz they were all late. And he damn stupid lor. He book out at 630pm and still want us to meet at 8pm. Where got time for him. So he was freaking late. And worst is while waiting for them Kent keep hao lian about his OCS training and keep insulting RSAF. I should complain that to my Wing Commander so that Kent will be severly punish. Then khoo yu keep saying his MP is damn good la, this and that. Fuck leh why the guys in my class like to show off so much ar. Keep telling other how good they are when in fact they are not at all.

WOOHOOO!!! I got COM for my course. I am one of the four who are getting it. Finally I have achieve my target of getting the COM. Haha so happy sia. I think I am more hardworking in NS than in Poly.

Haha wednesday night out went to meet Pear and her friend for dinner. Meet at orchard. Feel guilty coz I ps daniel tan, bernard and dennis. But still meet them at Plaza sing after dinner with the gals. So dinner was quite a rush for me. Sorry ar Pear. It wasn't easy for us to meet up and I have to rush off. Soooo sorry!!!

I was scared before making the call. When I finally plucked up my courage to do it...she was out. I thought I was definitely ready when I made the second call. The keyword is thought. It was barely 1 minute into the conversation, in fact just 4-6 sentences. I didn't expect her voice to jolt my tears. I didn't want to cry. It was suppose to be a happy thing. But so much memories came back... way too much. And everything reminds me of how much of a idiot I am.

I wish time could go back. I wish I can start living everyday to it's fullest so that I won't feel like this anymore in the future. I really want to. I just don't know how. I wish I can be more optimistic like how I was in primary and secondary school. What happened over the years????????? I need someone here with me. Or someone to just take me away.

Finally almost complete my revision liao. Left 3 more chapters. Serioulsy need to pass this exam coz the weightage is 75% out of the whole course. The previous 4 tests is only 25%. And to get best trainee I need to pass IPPT. Actually I am aiming for a pass. Who cares about best trainee. After tue I will be free loh. No more tests, exam and lect only left with practical. And practical is not tested.

Having chest pain again yesterday and worse is I left my medication in the school. I am so forgetful man. Haiz old liao. If only someone will keep reminding me to take my medicine. Haha.

I have decide that I want to enter the aviation industry so I am applying for aerospace. Haha. If I can't get in the no choice I will be gg to ACCA to study for accountancy. Haha. Muz plan for my future liao. But who know how to apply for uni??

Haha booking in again. This time I will not say sianz. I will say YEAH BOOK IN LEH. Haha. Ya I am so lame.

Haha I am back!!! Anyone miss me!!! No one right. Haha. 2 more weeks. Sad coz I dun want to leave the place. I am starting to like it.

Anyway this week was quite fun for me. Have been playing badminton, swimming and tennis. Most embarrasing is when playing tennis. People from ADA, C3 and AETI was watching us. And I made a fool out of myself coz I really suck at it. I keep missing. And my neck still hurt coz the ball hit me. That person really can aim man.

Next week is my final exam. Stress sia. If I pass then I can pass out from the school. The result for the previous 4 tests was not bad. I got full mark for 3 of my tests. Haha that is because I got listen during lessons.. The coming exam has no tips which make me damn stress now. Unlike poly always got tips. I miss poly life.

Had dinner with Pear juz now. Super long since we had dinner together. After that one of her friend join us. Haha her friend quite chio leh and is single too. Wahaha. As usual dinner with her was super lame. Coz we will always do stupid things. I think I spoilt my image in front of her friend. Hmm do I even have any image in the first place? Then wanted to watch a movie but I keep yawning. Coz I wake up damn early today thank to dennise. HE SLEEPWALK AT NIGHT!!! He drag my pillow and walk to his locker and suddenly ask Bernard to fall in. Scary leh. This is the first time I saw people doing that. So in the end only Pear and her friend went for the movie while I went home.

In case some of you dunno, we are really over. We are not talking to each other anymore. I guess this time there is really no chance. I know some of you may be wondering why. Well is becoz she told me that she is not going to give up her career and since I can't accept that fact so we might as well stop giving ourselves false hope and end everything completely. That is her decision and I respect it. Guess she really want to end everything and choose her career over me. I think there is a curse going around coz everyone around me seem to be having problem in their relationship. I will really appreciate it if no one ask me about this thing. I dun really like to talk about it.

Strangers can become friends and friends can become couple and couple can reduce to become friends again and in the end back to stranger again. This is what I call love cycle. Daniel theory.

Labels: The emptiness

Name: Daniel Yap
Horoscope: Aries
Birthdate: 8-4-1987
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Wish: Meet my Ms Right
Wish: Be happy all the time
Wish: To eat kinder bueno everyday




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