This may be my last entry here coz I am moving on to a NEW life. I have created a new msn account, have new hp number and also create new fb account. I want to prove that I can move on. 2010 is a brand new year and there will be a brand new me. You will see a better me. I want to lead a happy life so I shall stop bothering some issues as of today. No matter what is the outcome, the result will not affect me anymore. At least I know I've tried. No more unhappiness coz from now on my motivation in life is to strengthen my relationship with mindy. That will be the only thing in my mind now.

But my old hp number is still working. So can use that number to contact me. Like wise for my old fb account. Is just that most of the update will be on the new fb account. And what is most interesting is there will be photo of me and mindy together upload there. Like a dream come true right mindy. As for this blog, mindy will be using it while I will post new entry on my new blog. To prevent some people from seeing my entry and have the impression that I am scolding them when I am not. So shall blog elsewhere so that there won't be any misunderstanding. But I will still tag here. After all this is the place where we can talk cock.

Meeting the guys and mindy later to count down to a wonderful new year. Suppose to meet earlier but last night I went home quite late. Went out with shaun, jean, ee wen, jun yao and jun wen. Only had 2 hrs of sleep. Then morning had to wake up early to work. That's why I was damn tired just now. So plan to meet at night instead. Mindy say she got some surprise for me. But I can already guess what is it liao.

And the 10 things really made me headache sia. Lucky I got my buddies to help me. If not I cfm can't finish it. Thanks guys!!! My new family. Wahaha.

Ok this time I really need to clarify somethings again. Few days ago one of my entry about the friendship should just remain friendship and nothing more is direct at cw lee. The whole entry is direct at him just to prank him. Obviously not my idea. Is Da ge idea. But somehow he thought the whole entry was direct at others coz he say doesn't sound like directing at him at all. Oh man I shouldn't hold back at scolding him at all. So if by any chance you have the impression is direct at you, it is not. We came out with this stupid prank coz we are some lamester. We got nothing better to do so we keep doing stupid things. Get it??? So Tiff goh now you get it???? It was not saying you la. You really scare me that time la. You own me one dinner.

And previous entry about the intimate photo. As you know the entry was written by mindy. Her definition of some words is quite erm unique and different from other. There is no intimate photo of us. The most is she bear hug me. That's all. It's not what you guys imagine at all. Stop thinking dirty stuffs. I got self control. Wahaha.

Ok if nothing goes wrong, i will be leaving singapore for 2 months. Leaving end of jan. I volunteer myself for this assignment. The reason is simple: I am really tired after so many things that had happened and need to leave the country for a while. Well 2 months is exactly the time i need to seriously think about these issues. Maybe it is better this way coz i can think more clearly without external influence. Indulging myself in work can really help me forget many many unhappy issue. But obviously there is a price to pay. Like for these 2 months, I really don't how my back is going to take it. And it really doesn't matter to me anymore. Sitting in wheelchair might not be a bad idea after all. I know mindy will definitely go against it. But like i say before I hope she will support me instead of doubting me. Hopefully GPS will not backstab me which ruin everything for me. Really hate that guys.

I admit I went overboard this time...I told piggy to post our pictures on his fb account...But it was a harmless joke to him...I am so sorry...I know he hates posting intimate photo of us on fb...I know he hates me tagging or commenting anything that he post on his fb...He always like to do things low profile...Maybe he is not ready and needs more times...I tend to rush things without realising that I am pushing him to a corner...I gave him too much pressure...I hope he will forgive me...How I wish I am back...sheesh!

Anyway...our constant argument about certain issues made me super tired...He said that everytime when anything that happens is not within my plan, I'll get pissed and start throwing tantrums...and he said I stick to him like super glue...He can't even go out with his friends...I felt so sad after hearing that...He's changing...so am I...I just don't like all these argument and I want it to stop.

mood: saddness

Got a lot of comments about my style of smsing, blogging and msning. They said it is becoming more and more like mindy. Well muz be the influence coz I spent most of my time with her. But she really disappoint me last night.

Haiz. Sometimes I really wish you could be abit more understanding. Everyone knows that there is nothing going on between me and xinying. But why can't you believe me. Just because of one stupid joke and one photo and you have to question me like a criminal??? What were you even thinking???They were just teasing us for goodness sake. It is just some pure entertainment becoz we are bored. Nothing else.

Did you see me questioning you when there was one photo of you leaning very close with a guy call choo junrong??? Actually not only one but a few more. There is this photo where the two of you pose like couple. And your friends keep saying both of you are having underground relationship. After all these, did you see me questioning you??? NO!!! And do you know why??? Is becoz I knew all these were some plain silly jokes. People come up with it for the sake of some entertainment. And I trust you. But when the same thing happened to me and what have you done??? You treat me as a criminal and bomb me with so many questions.

Do you know why I untagged some of the photo from my facebook. It is becoz you hate me standing so close to this person or posing so close with that person. So I untagged the photo to prevent any misunderstanding. I gave in to you becoz I do not want you to be upset over something which never happen in the first place. But instead of trusting me, you actually suspect that I am flirting with other girls or I am having fling behind your back. Am I that kind of guy??? Don't you have any confidence in me at all???

What I am trying to say is you are very important to me. No one can replace the position that you held in my heart. But I need to have a balance of male and female friends. Those female friends are really juz friends. I only treat them as sister or as a really good friends. It is impossible for me and them to go beyond that becoz I already have you. Even though I told you not to put so much feeling in me and we should stick to juz dating and no status, I still won't betray you. I have my principal too. Once I am dating someone, I will only date that person. I am not an unfaithful person. You should know that. Yes I have change alot recently but something will never change.

If you are lacking confidence in me becoz I chose not to have any status, well I have my reason. The reason is not becoz there is another girl. Is juz that we have patch and break a few times. And you need to give me times. But i can assure you that there are no other girls.

Right now, what I need the most is your support and love but you are in bombay. Do you have any idea how much I miss you??? Come back to me soon ok??? Shall we stop fighting and live peacefully??? I am really sorry that I shouted at you yesterday. It was suppose to be a happy occassion but I screwed it all up. Can you forgive me???

I miss seeing you laugh for no reason. I miss seeing you smile. I miss listening to your stupid jokes. I miss you driving me around. I miss your blurness. I miss fishing/prawning with you. I miss brushing your teeth. I miss smelling your bad breath the first thing in the morning. I miss letting you smell my armpit. I miss your voice. I miss singing with you. And most importantly I miss your love. I am always here waiting for you.

No matter how close we were in the past, I will still only treat it as a friendship. And I want to keep the status as friendship. No more than that. Am I clear on that? So stop saying it is more than a friendship.

Becoz to me it will always be juz a friendship. This is juz a simple friendship. Please do not make it so complicated or exaggerate things. That is why I chose to ignore "that word" that you used to describe our friendship. In fact it would be better if you would take back that word. Coz it is a sensitive word. I hope you will treat it as a simple friendship like I always do. Please do not make me avoid you guys. That is the last things I want to do now.

Call me crazy or paranoid whichever you like for bringing out this issue. Coz I juz feel that certain have to be clear and understandable. The last thing I need now is for people to have any wild imagination about us. Our friends have some misunderstanding about our status in the past and it took me quite a while to explain things to them.

I am dating someone now. I do not want her to heard any unneccessary stuffs that will cause any misunderstanding. That is why I am stating my stand very clearly now. I repeat again to me it will only be juz friendship even though we may be as close as brother or sister.

And to my lovely donut ger, hope that visit with the box of love in the middle of the night cheered you up. I love you lots. I don't have a lot of time but I always try my best. Hope you understand. Actually I'm always there. You know it and I am happy. We are meeting tml!!! I need a big bear hug from you!!! It is gonna be a wonderful day again.

Somethings have to be said clearly before anythings can be done...When I meet piggy saturday night, he was limping...He told me not to worry and he is fine...I called his buddies for some information since he is so uncooperative...They told me he went perth because someone set him up...My first reaction was WTH!...Didn't daniel inform them he can't do anything much until next month...Why do they still have to send him there?...It makes no sense at all...He told me to let it go since he already got some "big plans" for that guy...What really upset me is he chose not to rest at home...Instead he went out to meet some people to settle some issues...Piggy can be real idiot sometimes...Why can't he put his health in his top most priority...Is friendship really that important to him?

Ok mindy landing at 1930 so I still got sometimes to surprise her. Haha at night party with edmund!!!! But first muz complain something

KNN!!! Fucking pissed off. Thursday night called me say I need to fly to perth on friday morning to get some IMPT signature. And one senior will accompany me. HELLO!!! What has that got to do with me??? Is you fucking ass screw up and I had to clear all this shit rubbish for you. You know you were suppose to get that piece of document sign before he went to perth for holiday. But you damn fucking lazy and keep delaying it until it was too late. And what is worse is you sabo me to go. CCB!!! You know my back got problem and I can't go oversea. And you still dared to influence the senior to order me to go. Piece of shit. What is worse is to think last time i was so close to you and keep lending you money. But did you pay back??? HELL NO!!!

Shit man. Go perth juz to get a few signatures and what is worse is that it was so last minute that we din stay at any hotel. We camp at the airport, trying to get the earliest flight back. Lucky my senior got connection so we took the earliest flight. And guess what??? I met chuan wei to pass him my stuffs juz in case and he told me GPS was the one who sabo me. Fucker sia. If he want to play then I will play with him. 1st he cause the 34th batch promotion, then try to separate us. Then keep cursing my batch cannot promote and now this. He is so going to get it.

Wa lau...mindy also at perth but i dunno which hotel she staying and all i brought with me was my lappy and clothes. Bet she would be happy to see me.

God damn it. My back damn pain after the flight la. Thanks ar!!!

It's my turn to post an entry...I am at perth now looking at the window of my hotel room doing nothing...How I wish daniel is here with me. ..Maybe if I open the door now, I will see him with a boutique of flowers to surprise me..Sheesh time for me to stop daydreaming!

Nowadays, we both like to use "opps." Some lame jokes that he and his friends came out with...And I will send the photo soon? LOL! He said I have a sweet smile and that sounds so "er xin" cming out from him...So I sent all my smiling photo to him until he is so irritated...Hmm or should I say afraid...But little did he knows that it was him who makes the smile...I am so glade that I have him with me all these wonderful times.

Recently he had some misunderstandings with his friends...Maybe I was too involve in his personal life at that point of time...I should give him more freedom instead of looking for him all the times...Deep down I know he treasure that friendship very much...I feel guilty for all the misery that he had to endure...It really hurts me to see him losing the friends that he treasure the most...It's time for me to let go of him...I want him to have more freedom and spend more times with his friends...I know I shouldn't cling onto him...But...?

I will be flying back this saturday...I know he won't be there to pick me up...He told me he need to settle some issues that had been bothering him for quite sometimes...I hope he will get the result he need...I want to see him living a peaceful life, free of saddness...Somehow I wish he put that issue aside and surprise me at my doorstep...But I know that will be impossible...But I really hope it will happen...Ok there I go again, getting too possessive over him...Next week will be our 1 month of dating...Will he remember the promise he made to me or will he be too bother with the issue that he totally forgot about fufilling it...Hmm why are there tears in my eyes now...Is it because that I have missed him too much?

Why is my donut? Opps...LOL! Daniel piggy what are you doing now? I miss you too...Shall we play some light tennis when I return...I miss going supper with you...I miss having k-session with you...What are the things that you miss about me...Rest more!

Mood: missing you.

Haha since mindy don't want to post any entry then i shall post it. Have been having some fun time with her. Went to eat, have desert with my buddies etc. I dunno why man. Everytime when i am super pissed off all i need to do is see her smile and i will cool down. That is why she send me all her smiley photo.

Ok i have been waiting for mindy to send me the photo but it will take ages. And what is worse is she always send the photo that only has her. Have been neglecting bell bell sia. Anyway friday had dinner and dessert at serangoon with the guys. Mindy join us much later coz she got something on. Then went to walk around serangoon area. Haha LTC again will be funny funny de. And wei er always cam whoring. And mindy you found your cam whoring kaki liao la. Wahah. Then drove to ang mo kio. We sat at some void deck for a drink and talk about some stuffs. Saturday meet them again for lunch. Went kushinbo again. Wahaha this time with Sa Lim. Miss him sia. Went back bmt then nv contact us. At night went jumbo for dinner. We invite mindy, winnie, michelle and amanda too. Mindy with me, amanda with LTC, michelle with kevin and winni with wei er. Sa lim got jack. Wahaha. Super fun man. I am growing sideward le la. Went to the beach to walk walk. And went home after that.

Haha whole family going japan without me. WTH!!! My mum was worry about leaving me alone at home because of my back. That is why she asked me to go stay with my uncle. But that is so unconvenient for me when i gg to work la. That is why i was thinking of either mindy coming over to stay or i gg wei er house to stay. But mindy fly off yesterday le and will only be back by saturday. Haiz so troublesome sia. Stupid back.

Oh ya guys, mindy and i are organising some private xmas party at sentosa. We book the villa le. Do remember to come ok. No need to bring present. So love my buddies and mindy now that they are my new family member.

Haha I want to complain something. Someone called me at 4am for super early breakfast. I can't meet her for supper so she insisted i meet her for breakfast. But isn't 4am abit too early??? Then wanted to give me surprise but in the end screw up. Hello where got people carry the surprise around de? Cfm will be suspicious leh my dear. SOOOO DISAPPOINT!! Anyway went back to sleep coz i was really tired. Meet again in the afternoon to go shopping. Haha walk around bugis. Haha cam whoring again. Haha i warn her about uploading the photo on fb. Coz i simply hate people tagging me on fb. And cfm some kaypoh will ask me qns de.

Haha I keep singing christmas songs coz she said i sound like the grinch. She got so irritated that she stuffs the whole tissue into my mouth. Made me had a hard time getting the tissue out sia. Not to mention i swallow some of it. YUCK!!!! And a lot of people was staring at me la. Well get uesd to it coz that is how we behave when we are shopping. Haha after today i think i will be broke coz i brought the material for her xmas present. Guess what I making for her??? I think wei er shld know it la. ok la...i buy lego then try to build her face. Really had a hard time doing it lor. And wa lau lego so expensive sia. Xmas present cannot juz buy and give de ma. Muz at least make some effort leh. Am I right???

Ok time for some updates. One of the previous entry was a cover up for something. Well some of you guess it right. It's about her. We are not really back together yet. But we are trying to work things out coz there are still some issues. Why am i telling these?? Coz I realise if we are really dating, just admit it. What is the purpose of hiding it??? No point hiding ma coz sooner or later people will find out the truth. So might as well say it now. So I really dunno why some people obviously got something going on between them but keep denying. This is no different from lying. And I hate liar. Currently I only update 4 people. And I like to keep thing low profile so people don't keep asking me qns. I wun entertain them. Unless you are one of the 4 guys.

You all may be wondering why I suddenly want to be back with her. Well is becoz of the things she did for me for the past one month. I am really damn touched. She made me feel the love and I am not alone in this battle. As some of you have know the condition of my back is getting worse. She went online to search what I should do and what I shouldn't do. Make sure i rest at home after work instead of going out. She know that i have been taking painkiller and one of the side effect is high blood pressure. So she had been making tonic for me whenever she is in singapore. And she even went to learnt how to make them. But there are also some issue la. Like she scare i kena take as a fool that's why she forbid me from meeting certain people. We are still trying to work that out. But I know everything she do is for my well being. That is why I wun blame her when she used my blog to voice out her feeling. I trust her and she trust me. She never lie to me. She cares for me. That is all I am asking for.

I guess I will never learn to like you guys or appreciate you guys.
I don't know if I am pushing the blame to both of you...
But...whenever he meet you all, I feel unesay...
I feel that I am getting possessive...I meet him everyday whenever I am in singapore...
But when he went out with you guys, he never mentioned it to me...
I kept calling his phone and his house...nobody answered...
I was panicking...yet he was enjoying with you all...
You guys may be his BEST FRIENDS!...but I'm really sorry...I DON'Y LIKE YOU ALL AT ALL...

I wanna give him more space...but I keep running to him...
I want him to do the things he like...and of course I cannot tie him at home..
It's too boring! He needs his time as well! Some guy time...

Whatever it is...I still dislike the both of you...I never like you all...
I dislike people who does nothing and lies to him
Some people like to think they know him best but they know nothing at all...
and these people are just 1 word...USELESS...

Come on...stop lying and wrecking daniel lives...
Don't go around and destroy his happiness!

If daniel reads this...We will argue for sure...
and yet...I'm still publicising this entry...Because I'm seriously pissed!
I need to let him knows that I am worried about him and they'll will do something bad to him!..
I just dislike them...
Making use of him to do so many things for them...taking him as a fool...constantly lying to him...accussing him of doing things that he did not do...Stop all youu rubbish...
Get over it...daniel is leading a happy life without you guys bothering him these few weeks...

Mood:cranky

Name: Daniel Yap
Horoscope: Aries
Birthdate: 8-4-1987
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Wish: Meet my Ms Right
Wish: Be happy all the time
Wish: To eat kinder bueno everyday




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