Look for your love but you’ll never find it all.
Let your love go, live your life and leave it.
Then one day wake up and she’ll be home.
I have already stop loving anyone.

KNS!!! Feeling suck man. TOTALLY!!! First this and now that. I didnt utter a word yesterday after the result coz I am very troubled over the exam thing. I didnt know I could be so emo till I don't even want to talk to anyone. But I'm okay now coz I vent all my anger just now during the badminton game. Afer that went to sing with the guys. I think I was shouting most of the time instead of singing. Feeling really tired now.

Next week cfm go home late le. Coz have to stay back to study until 8 p.m. They are really giving me a lot of stress. So much that I feel like giving up. But I am not a quitter. And lucky one of the instuctor is quite good to us. He helps us a lot and keep encouraging us. And becoz of this exam I have to go and buy the stupid model kit to familiarise with the whole system.

Haha congratulation to mama yeo for being commission liao. Woah a LT le. Higher rank than me. Next time when I see her I think I muz salute to her le. Haha.

Damn stress today sia. The instructor went thru all the notes and I dun even understand a thing. I mean come on la I am a business student leh!! Need to take time to understand ma. He still stress me somemore. Stupid ass. Hmm if I really going for detachment, it will either be thailand or australia. And I will be gone for about 6-8 weeks sia. Will you all miss me? Haha.

Haha this friday maybe going NYP swimming again. Actually the lifeguard quite chio leh. And I am so going to wear my short short again. No choice la feel very comfortable in it. Hopefully xiaomei wun be there to laugh at me coz I think she will post the pic to her blog. But no way man. I am shy. Haha.

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart but somehow feeling warm inside becoz you 're close in heart. Actually I've always loved you. It's just that you didn't realise it that all.

So bored now so shall post some overdue photos.

This pic is especially for xiao mei. Haha.

The bdae present frm the people from AFS.

Haha today we were release early. Finally man. Then we were thinking of where to go and what to do. And in the end go party world to sing. Haha. Then bernard and dennis the two gays start singing couple song. So weird sia. Haha and as usual I need to drink some beer first before I sing. Haha need to be high first. Haha and I tell you man going singing with all guys is really different and fun. Maybe we should make this a weekly routine. Then mama join us for a while before booking in again. Mama damn busy ar, keep pushing back my tennis lesson. Hmm...maybe looking for a papa for me. Haha.

Haha and congratulation guys for successfully in scaring the shit out of me for the first time. Relax guys I will have my revenge soon. Wahaha(evil laugh). And there wun be a next time. And to think I almost believe it. Haha I salute to the person who came up with that idea. Haha.

Haha weekend faster come!!!

Haha I really miss AFS. Life's good there not like here man. Haiz muz bear for one year plus leh. How!!! Anyway yesterday went the IT show and super damn crowded. And best part is we got separated. And I kena molest sia. Worse is I dunno is a guy or a girl touch me.Haha.

Haha next friday exam lo. Muz pass this exam in order to be promote to coporal. Haha got another exam on 17th april and muz pass that paper if I want to promote to 3rd sergent. Hmm will they increase my pay if I am 3rd sergent? Haha hopefully so man.

And I realised something. Do I use "haha" over excessively? Hahaha I think so right.I can't help it man! It comes so naturally. haha Oh shit there it is again...hahaha OMG. STOP IT. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAHAH. Haha I know very lame. AND I DARE THE PEOPLE READING THIS TO SCOLD ME LAME!!! See what I will do. Hahaha.

Haha thursday went out for dinner with the guys at yishun. Went to the hawker that I always eat whenever I go to yishun. Haha go there to eat is becoz near my camp. Less than 15 min bus ride I think. Then something funny happened. A group of secondary girls suddenly ask us to help them do survey. We rejected at first but they keep pestering us so we help them do. Then I am freaking piss off with one girl. Why ar?? Read below.

Secondary school girl: You are from air force? cool leh. Are you a pilot??Pilot there handsome anot?
Me: ER I am only a tech...ya all damn handsome and very gentleman.
Secondary school girl: Really!! Are you close with them? Can intro them to me?
Me: Huh?? cannot la!!
Secondary school girl: Why cannot? Then you got girlfriend ma?
Dennis: He got girlfriend le...You got no chance le.
Me: ya sorry I got girlfriend le...I am in a hurry...bye.

I left without completing the survey. Lucky I nv put my contact number down or else sure die. HO YA I dun have girlfriend. So relax ar. I am single and available.

Then friday damn suay. I fell down on my way home and injured my back. Went to ttsh to take x-ray and quite relieve that I din broke any bone. And the doctor gave me painkiller to stop the pain and gave me light duty for two week. My back is still hurt sia. Then my mum told me the painkiller will kill me someday if I keep taking them. Sianz no exercise for me for two weeks. I want to watch movies leh. Haha.

STRESS!!!!! Having exam again at the end of the month. Start my course today. So far still can cope. And the note is really damn thick la. But one happy thing is may be getting my corporal rank around june. And if my performance is good I can be promote to 3rd Sergent by the end of the year. Haha who say you need to go SISPEC to be sergent. But really muz put in lots of hardwork to achieve that. Right now I need someone to tap me on the shoulder and say I can do it to motivate me. Better still buy me chocolate. Wahaha.

HO YA!! Saturday something very funny happen. Someone thought my bdae is on the 8th march and wish me happy bdae and buy me present somemore. And I thought only xiao mei forget my bdae but there are actually people forgetting too. Haiz really sad leh. But still thank for the wish and present. Haha you know who you are. Sorry for being so thick skin. This year for my bdae I want to eat home-made sushi and home-made cheesecake. DUN BUY ANYTHING FOR ME!!! Haha now you all know what I want liao so your life very easy right. Wahaha.

Ok gg back to study le...bye.

And the khoo yu keep smsing me that no one free to go sentosa with him. So I ask him to look for his army friends. He say all accompany girlfriends. BULLSHIT MAN!!! From my BMT till now, of all the guys I know only 20% are attach. Where got all the guys in your section attached de. Think I stupid ar. Then he act ke lian. Say he got two days off but stay at home coz no one free to go out with him. I also dun want to go out with him so I lie that I am watching a movie with xiaomei. He keep asking where we are going, what time we are going, who else going and what show we watching. He was like want to join us like that. And worse I think he want me to convince xiao mei to go sentosa. He really damn fan. Keep asking me to ask.

Haha today was release around 1230. Then me, dennis, bernard, jack, chuan wei and tiong seng went to yishun safra to swim. Then something very stupid happened. Chuan wei heard my hp ringing so I went to pick and the master say we need to go back to camp now coz the higher -up want to speak to us. So we quickly change back to our uniform and took a cab back. And they realease us around 3p.m.

I juz dunno what to do anymore. Why can't you just make the effort to make things right? I want to be a better person. I want things to be smooth. I wanna be happy. I does and say wrong things too.

But despite all that have been done, I actually ask MYSELF? What is wrong? Why things don't work out? Can I really forgive or forget? Or the problem actually lies with you and not me?

Make me feel that effort is made by you, you should know it more than myself. I don't ask for anything. I don't expect anything. I just hope that you will do something. How beautiful it will be if you could do that?

But it's gone...

其實我很愛她

Haiz time really flies. In a flash it is march now. Still got 1 yr plus of service. My freedom last until this sunday. Next monday officially start my course which mean more studies and EXAM!!! ARGH!!!

There is a saying that ignorance is bliss. Well KISS MY A**!!! I learnt it the hard way. It feels good to know that you actually mean something to someone. Am I right?

Tml slacking day again. Sianz. That is my life now. But I want more. Haha.

Haha this week was quite relaxing for me coz thur half day off so slack at home and friday took leave so no need to book in. Friday morning went back to NYP with Jack and Chuan wei to swim. But the person say we are not allow to swim coz it is exam period. Screw them man. I was damn piss off so I argue with the person. So in the end we juz walk off and went to the library. Then in the afternoon we went to Toa Payoh and meet the rest coz we gg to play squash. After the game we went to marine parade to eat. I eat alot after those excerise. Sooner or later I am sure to gain weight liao. I hate the old me coz quite fat. That is why I am playing badminton, squash, tennis now to lose weight. Haha.

Saturday afternoon meet Khoo yu at vivo to shop. WA LAO!!! Saw his female friends at vivo and they are damn chio la. Somemore is my type de. Those kind of sporty gals sia. Do I sound like a pervert here?? I saw Mindy with hui qin there but din go up to say hello. Haha I chose to walk away. As usual quite boring gg out with him. Again I thought got a few more gg and in the end only me and him. And I think the staffs at NUM think we are gay. Fuck man why am I so stupid all the time. Seriously if you see me keeping quiet the whole time mean I am so damn bored. Otherwise normally I will crap a lot. So the next time if I go out with any of you and remain quiet all the time mean I am bored. Dun be like kupoh always say I am emoing juz becoz I keep quiet all the time. Is becoz I AM SO DAMN BORED NOT EMO. Haha.

OH ya xiao mei, Khoo yu mentions you leh. He asks why you always go out with me and wun go out with him. And everytime he asks you out, you always give the reason that you are not close with him (try another reason next time). Is that true? I thought last time you two will discuss project HAPPILY de. Haha. And he got ask you out ar?? How come you nv say sia. Aiyo give him a chance la. Everytime when I say I am not free coz I am meeting someone, he will ask whether is it you and can he tag along leh. Haha see he miss you la. I can help you two de leh. Haha.

Anyway evening meet up with Dennis, Bernard and Michelle for tennis. But it was raining so we went to chomp chomp to eat instead. Bernard damn gay and crazy yesterday. Muz have eat too much choco. Or is it becoz of eve or rebecaa?? Haha. Then Dennis seems very jealous. Hm is it becoz Michelle keep talking to me and not him?? After that went to watch underworld : rise of the lycan. Surprise to know that Michelle like the underworld series. Haha. And guess what?? I can't control my urge for choco anymore so I brought 3 packets of Kinder bueno. Siao liao man.

See the damn gay bernard!!!

This morning had breakfast with Pear and Vincent. They say I change alot. Haha I look more cheerful now. Of coz la. Got a bunch of great buddies from AFS to play with me, entertain me and cheer me up. Where to find such good friends. Really great that I went AFS. If not I wun be able to meet these great and cool guys. Haha suddenly I dun miss my poly life but I miss my days at AFS.

Name: Daniel Yap
Horoscope: Aries
Birthdate: 8-4-1987
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