Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Tired is all I have to say to you. To me, there will always be more than 1 ______. To you, there will always be more than 1 ______. Who am I to judge who is right or who is wrong. Sometimes, I feel that being a nobody to you is better than being a somebody to you. You gives me so much love, care, concern and attention. But have you ever had the slighest idea that it freak me out. It not that I am not willing to take one step further. It just that I am not ready yet. It takes times. And that is something that you are not giving me. I need a break from all these.
; You promised me the sunrise,
under that tree at 5:46 PM ♥
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Official Day 2 without Her:
Stupid flu!!! Make me feel so terrible now. Totally no energy to see doctor. What is worse is today kena caught in the rain. What to do leh. No one to take care of me anymore, muz learn how to look after myself. Haiz hate taking mc to rest at home coz I will feel bored.
; You promised me the sunrise,
under that tree at 10:03 PM ♥
Monday, March 8, 2010
Official Day 1 without Her:
Life had been a little disorganise without her. Usually she will help me keep track of my activities. She is like my secretary. Even when she is oversea, she will send an e-mail to remind me of any important event. Now I need to manage my own life, check my own schedule etc. That's why last saturday a bit screw up. Suppose to meet the guys but forgot that I had already made plan with shaun and gang. So sorry guys. Well guess it's time for me to learn how to run my own life.
Saw her blog entry just now. And I was damn touch by what she posted. I will gives time for her to change. I will wait for her. But now is not the time to patch coz we both are not ready yet. Time is the best remedy. And guys, good new. It means I will be meeting more of you all.
; You promised me the sunrise,
under that tree at 10:33 PM ♥
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Ironic isn't it. I was the one who suggested that we should end it but I still can't get over her. This is not what I had in mind. I want her back so much. But I know I can't. I felt so stress and I need some breathing space. I am trying to be happy. No I should said I forced myself to be happy. The laughter and the smile is all so fake. How long can I continue acting??? I try to be strong in front of everyone. Looking as if it didn't affect me, looking as if I had no regret etc. But it really matter to me. I drink to get myself drunk to forget her. But it is not helping. It just prove that I still love her so damn much. But I can't face her. After all the things that had happened. I admit I am still disappointed in her. But my love for her is still strong. We still talk to each other. But every time whenever we talk on the phone, I felt like saying " precious I miss you, come back to me will ya?"
Tell me what should I do??? Bang my head to the wall so that I will have memory loss??? Disappear for a while to sort things out??? I really need some advise.
; You promised me the sunrise,
under that tree at 3:09 PM ♥
