Haha today damn tired sia. The first thing I did when I reach home was taking painkillers. Haha coz my back damn pain la. Have been bearing the pain for the entire night coz I forgot to bring the painkillers to the chalet. Damn it man getting forgetful nowaday. I really need someone to keep remaining me to bring and take my medicine. If not I will forget all about it. Who will be the kind soul to sms me every night to take my medicine??? Haha seriously doubt there will ever be one. Maybe I need a PA.

Haiz I miss home cook food sia. My mother haven't been cooking for a while liao and no one invite me to their home to eat. I have been eating outside food quite some time which is very unhealthy. Who want to cook for me??

Today was suppose to play tennis with michelle but in the end didn't play coz my of my back la. And xiao mei ask me not to play too and no choice listen to her. Haha so concern about dajie sia later the "who" or the "who" jealous and beat me up leh. Dajie scare de leh. Anyway in the end we meet up with chuan wei for a late lunch. F*** sia chuan wei suddenly sang the "love you" by the Howl in korean. And he sang it very well. And me and michelle are having a competition now to see who is the next person who is able to sing it in korean. For a moment chau wei is my idol.

Okok yesterday morning went to AFS to return my No.2 uniform. After that meet up with michelle for tennis. After the tennis went for my physiotheraphy. The physiotheraphy was damn tough la. I really regret not listening to xiao mei sia. Shouldn't have play tennis before gg for the theraphy. After that went somerset HMV to buy the CD for xiao mei coz I promise her to buy her something if she try her best at the interview. Then made my way to pasir ris for damei bdae party. Haha when I reach there, it was still raining so the bbq was delay. But in the end we used the umberalla to bbq. Haha play balak with liqin and damn funny sia coz I think she really forget all the rules. But also a bit sad coz she wanted to play and shaun like don't want to play with her. Haha nvm next time when I am lucky I will play with her. Haha then at night me, shaun, ee wen and xiao mei went to the beach. Haha really cold sia coz I was wearing a singlet. Then went back the chalet to sleep. I didn't really sleep well coz I scared someone will fall down and hit her head. Went for breakfast in the morning and head home after that. But I only slept for 3 hours. Wa whole body breaking down liao.

She went to moscow today and will only be back in a week time. Maybe I will use this one week to really reconsider everything and settle eveything once and for all. The true is I kind of miss her abit. But does she miss me??? I waited the whole night for her to at least send me an sms but she didn't. A lot of my buddies had been telling me to let go and I shouldn't drag on any longer coz things might become complicated. And michelle even scolded me for making such a hasty decision. And I seriously think that she accept me that time is becoz she dun want to embarrassed me in front of the whole crowd. Right now I still think that being single is still the best. And who know maybe this time next week it's over between us le. I feel like crying now and I don't even know why.

P.S. Xiao mei good luck and enjoy your mj tml. Got the "who" accompanying you leh. I wait for your good new soon. And rember our bet leh if you are tgt with one of them by december I will give you and him 3 treats, if not you will have to give me 3 treats. Have you realise that you have unknowingly fallen for him. Haha ask urself that qn.

Haha I am off on monday and took leave on tuesday. LONG WEEKEND!!! But Monday will be quite a busy day for me coz morning need to return my no.2 uniform, then meet michelle for tennis, and then go for my physiotheraphy and lastly go to da mei bdae party. Haha meet Pear for dinner today coz I hate eating alone. Then complain a lot of things to her. Goona kill her if she say anything. Haha.

I was thinking of leaving behind the memories and simply walk away. Don't care about anything anymore. I want to live in reality not fantasy. And I can't live with someone who chose to live in their own fantasy world. Live in europe!!!! OMG please wake up your childish dream.

Ask her if she want to watch movie with me and she told me she is going with her friends. And worse she even took away my safra card coz weekend movie tickets got discount. WA LAU EH then what about me??? What makes her think that I don't need it. She even ask me to take care of bell bell for her while she ENJOY herself. Imagine if we are married, I am the one staying at home taking care of the kids while she enjoy herself outside. That is why I will only start a family when I am 36. Unless I meet a girl who can change my mind. Somehow I got this feeling that she is taking me for granted. Maybe it's karma coz I used to do the same thing to her. Chuan wei and Jack advise me to end it now instead of dragging it coz things will get complicated.

Haiz we are having so much problem now. And I am trying so hard to solve the problem. But I doubt my ability. That is why monday I won't be bringing her. Coz I know Shaun will stare at her FROM HEAD TO TOE and flirt with her. And after that I will cfm be angry with both of them.

Haha what a wonderful week it is for me!!! Have bee going out with my hello kitty. Haha took lots of pic but she lazy to spend me. We keep playing the "at what age will you get marry" game. The game which ee wen taught me. Haha she is getting marry at 35!!! Haha I think this is so not true. Then discuss something impt with her. And she say yes!!!! If I am really going to US for 2 years, we will get marry immediately. So that is why I say the game is not accurate. Mr and Mrs Yap...Hmmm sound damn nice la!!!! Wahaha.So praying hard now that the application will be approve. n

HSuddenly I ask myself whether I have done the right thing??? Someone please tell me that everything is worth it and what I have done is right. Is it me or is it something else coz it is not the same as before. It is like it is no longer as strong as before. Is this truly what I want or is this what other want and I am doing it to please them? Time will tell everything. Haiz...

Yesterday dinner was so happening sia. I wouldn't call it a dinner coz all we ate was finger food. Haha Pear set me up. She say she wanted to go and in the end she ask "SOMEONE " to go with me. That is the third surprise she gave me le. But thx girl, coz I own you big time. That is why yesterday was really a happy and memorable day for me. So like I say, all it takes is a little push so that nature can take it course. Haha took lots of photo but dunn think I will show anyone. Hehe. Then saw them asking those guys with partner to dance with his partner so I quickly siam with Mindy. Haha in the end still kena caught. And I dun even know how to dance la. So just hug and move around lor.

Haha then came the highlight of the dinner. The mentor and mentee trying to steal the limelight. Haha yes I am the mentee. My mentor propose to his gf. His speech was damn funny man and that scene was damn touching la. Some of the girls even cry there. Haha obviously the mentee cannot lose out ma. Actually for me, it was planned last min with my mentor. After my mentor propose to his gf, he say " today is going to be my mentee big night too." And all push me and mindy to the front. Haha I was damn nervous. Lucky I got prepare my speech( I hide in the toilet to write the speech so Mindy wun know).

Haha I say: " Good evening. Congratualtion to my mentor. Sorry but we are stealing the limelight for tonight. I must thx my mentor for giving me this opportunity to do something which I should have done a very very long time ago. I used to have a very wonderful gf. She is pretty, funny, interesting, caring and most imptly she loved me. But wa cannot ask her to cook la if not I will visit NKF real soon. We were very much in love. Then we broke up becoz I made the biggest mistake which any man would made. I took her for granted. I wasn't very understanding. I keep complaining about her job, how she got less time for me and how she put her career before me. After we broke up, I still think of her time to time. And a few months ago, I have really give up. But recently, I found out she has been doing something which really makes me think that it is still possible for us. Right now, I want to tell her that I want to be the guy who will love her eternally, I want to be the guy to make her smile whenever she is sad, I want to be the guy to be by her side when she need me the most, I want to be the guy to tuck her to bed, I want to be the guy whom she will spend with for the rest of her life. And I definitely want to be the guy to say will you come back to my life AGAIN."

Haha you all should noe what ans she gave me. But I think it's a bit ironic coz 22nd June 2008 is the day we stop talking to each other. And 22nd June 2009 is the day we patch up. Is it a coincidence?

Haha today is my off day. So later going picnic with her. Actually I dun like picnic but she insist so give in to her lor.

WAHAHA I AM A HAPPY MAN!!1

Damn tired today coz I woke up damn early in the morning. No choice coz my mum gg to hong kong tml and I need to help her buy some stuffs. Then afternoon meet mama and jack for tennis. Haiz when can I get the technique right??? But it has always been fun playing tennis with them even though I always lose. But still fun for me. Haha someday I will win.

Meet someone for dinner at east coast. Went to jumbo for seafood. Haha someone treating me sia. Quite happy la. Hehe. Anyway the food there was damn nice. But dun ask me the price coz I really dunno. So my friends you all should go there too. After dinner, walk around and lots of talking. Finally got the answer that I have been searching for.




Haha we order two plates!!!




Can guess who????

Oh ya I think I will accept the offer after getting some smart advice from liqin. Guess what she told me made sense too. It's such a good opportunity for me. And I shouldn't miss it. 2 years will pass in a brink. But everything is not cfm yet so I shouldn't be too excited yet. So my friends muz e-mail to me ok.

Haha I know some of you have a few question mark...Haha actually me too. But promise you guys there will be some answer soon.

This week damn suay. Firstly Pear leg is in a cast now so I don't want her to walk away too much. In other word I got no partner for the dinner. And worst is they keep pestering to bring another one. Wa lau eh I dun even want to bring anyone in the first place lor. And my leave haven't been approve. Still pending sia.

And I got a offer which sound too tempting for me. But if I take up the offer, I will have to leave my friends and family for 2 WHOLE YEARS. Not to mention I will alone there. But I somehow got this feeling I will take up the offer. Can someone give me advice???

Haha today I miss calculate. I thought will be release around 3pm. In the end release at 6pm. Haha went dinner with the guys. Then me, jack and chuan wei went amk to meet dennis, bernard and mama. So long nv see mama le. Haha we go kbox. Seriously I was too tired to even hold the mike. I left early coz I really cannot take it. Haha. Then on my way back, I heard a craking sound in my back. Suddenly I can't move. Really scared the shit out of me.

I like to stay up late when I'm off just to make my day seem longer. Self-deceiving. I am already dreading saturday. Do you think it's difficult for two to become one? I think time and a little bit of chemistry is all you need. But when the end comes, all the memories created over time are the reason you feel devastated. If in the end all you feel is sadness, why bother beginning?

Sianz tml start working shift again. But look on the bright side don't have to work on saturaday. Hahaok today did something very daring. Although the outcomeis not what I expect, but it somehow made me realise something important.

Ok noe what I did today? I confess to Pear today. And she rejected me at first. But then she sms me again and say she is willing to accept me. Haha seriously I was really shocked at that time and I do not know what to do and how to reply. So I called her. We had a really long talk. She asked me many questions and I really think them through before replying her. And after the talk I finally know what I had to do now.

I need to make a choice in order to be fair to Pear. During the past few months, I thought that I had already let go of someone. And many of my friends thought so too. But I somehow realise that this person is still in my mind. She still has a place in my heart and I can't deny that. If I am going to be with Pear, I need to devote 100% to her. But can I do it? I can try or I can give up. So now I am going to do what other have been telling me to do which is to.......

Wish me good luck.

DAMN F*** UP!!!! Dun even want to mention it here. Suddenly got no feeling anymore. Not going to care a damn anymore. And I rather go to the dinner ALONE!!! I am really disappointed in you. I can accept the fact that you overslept coz you are tired. But what I cannot accept is YOUR SHITTY ATTITUDE!!! There is a limit. This is the first time I am so F***ing angry with you. And we even promise not to do anything to anger each other. And look what happen now. I noe after reading this you will start hating me and even cursing me now. But do you think I care??? You are my closest friend leh. I place you above anything else. Do you know how worried I am when you didn't reply me yesterday and when you didn't show up today. And in the end what I get from you??? Is your shitty attitude!!! And you still want to blame me for everything. Since this is how you want to play it, then fine everything is my fault. I shouldn't have ask you out today, I shouldn't have ask you to be my partner, I shouldn't ask you to do thing which you don't like and i definitely shouldn't have LOVE YOU. This is all my mistakes. DO YOU GET IT NOW???

Haha wake up damn early today to go jogging with Pear. So long nv run le so abit struggling. Haha seriously I hate running. Then went home coz she having a bbq at night while I meeting er mei and xiao mei. Haha those two keeping asking me alot of qn. Haha so I also ask back. And xiao mei that guy suitable for you. Seriously, dun miss the chance. Later you regret then you will know. Haha.

Stupid Pear nv reply my call and sms. I AM STILL WAITING NOW LEH!!! Should I punish you tml??? Haha.

I want to confess to you.
I yearn to say I love you.
But I lack the courage to do so.
I am afraid you will reject me like what I did to you.
I am afraid that you no longer love me.
I am afraid that you have given up on me.
Tell me what to do please.
You know who you are.
Maybe I should take it like a man be it reject or accept.
ARGH!!!!

Haha this week damn free so have been going out with Pear. Coz she juz finish her exam and is so free now like me. But I only only free for this week. Haha we spent alot on eating. We went chinatown, holland village and chomp chomp to eat. Haha muz make her gain weight coz I think she is too skinner le. Muz be the stress. Haha then juz now had dinner with her and her friend. Haha damn funny coz her friend thought I was her brother. Wa lau eh guys, one look can see we are more than that la. And the two of them keep cam whoring.

Haha went to Pear hse after that coz I need to choose one dress for her. Haha no choice la coz my sqn dinner require me to bring a "female partner" so I am bringing her. And very funny sia coz for the first time I feel shy asking her to be my partner. And sad to say she don't have any suitable dress so muz go buy with her on Sunday.


someone act hardworking only.

Haha forget to blog about ah poon bbq last week. Haha he invite a lot of people sia. But our clique only me, Pear and Vincent turn up. And I feel guilty sia coz I nv help out anything. I wait for the food to be serve and keep playing with the dog with Pear. Haha.


Wa!!! So cute!!! Er talking about the dog only.

Haha are you guys irritated that I keep changing my blog url. Haha I think it's fun leh. Haha anyway damn busy recently. I haven't been shopping like almost a month le. And super broke this month coz make a sunglass which cost me $800!!! And it's 4 candles le. Some of you all should know what I mean by that.

Last week I was working night shift and was damn fierce. Work until 2am-3am in the morning. I hate night shift coz it really make me no life guy coz by the time I reach home, the whole world is like dead. No one online, no one reply my sms, no one to call etc. This is really damn sad leh!!! And by the time I woke up, it's time to work again. But this week is morning shift. I like morning shift coz get to go home early. Like today, they release us at 2pm. But muz start work early la sometime 2am muz start work le. And worst thing is from this week onward need to work weekend too becoz of the NDP.

Haha my mum ask me when I want to settle down. I told her when I reach 28 or 29 I will marry to my Miss RIGHT. And she was quite happy. BUT when I told her I will only start "creating life" when I am 36. Haha she really scold the shit out of me and keep nagging at me. But wa lau eh you expect me everyday go home after work and look after kids meh??? NO WAY man!!! HELL NO!!! I still want to enjoy life. I dun want to drive a MPV so soon. I want to drive those sport car or two-seater car first. I dun want to be tie down so soon. Haha now you guys should know why I am still single. Coz still looking for the girl who share my thinking. Haha those interested please submit your heart to me. Can't beleive I juz wrote that. Wahahah.

Oh ya one more thing muz mention here. Haha quite funny. It's about bell bell. I am really proud of her. Coz she have been well trained by me. HEHE. OK stella told me the idiot Edwin suddenly went to Mindy house. And worst is Mindy never told him where she live. But later found out is some colleague told him. Back to the story. The moment bell bell saw that idiot, she was barking non stop and almost bite him and the idiot freak out. The most interesting part is do you know why bell bell bark the moment she saw that idiot? Well is becoz whenever I went to Mindy house(last time now no more liao), I will secretly train bell bell. I keep showing bell bell the idiot photo and taught bell bell to bark whenever she saw him. And surprisingly after 10 months she still remember what I had taught her. I am soo touched. Bell bell you are the best dog ever. And stella thanks for telling me that. It really brighten my day. Seriously, I was laughing and smiling the whole day whenever I thought how pathetic he is. Am I evil??? No right.

HAHA I hope everything will end like real soon!!!! I want holiday too. Envy those student coz they are having one month holiday. ARGH!!!

Name: Daniel Yap
Horoscope: Aries
Birthdate: 8-4-1987
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Wish: Meet my Ms Right
Wish: Be happy all the time
Wish: To eat kinder bueno everyday




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