Haha really damn tired liao. Yesterday went home early coz got a lot of helper. Went to illuma today with michelle, dennis and bernard. Haha everytime when I went out whith them, I will surely eat alot. Haha got dennis ma sure eat de ma. This is the second time I meeting them there this week. Haha so long never play tennis with michelle le. But still can't play now coz I want to recover my back ASAP. Evening meet up with Vincent, Pear and Tiff. Haha went chomp chomp for dinner. Seriously I am getting fatter le. Die liao la. We crap alot during the dinner sia. And Pear want to hold her party on 3,4 and 5 august. So little time for me to plan sia. What to do leh.

Haha next week is morning shift which mean can go home early and will be damn free in the afternoon. Sometime even if you are very close friend, it is best to keep a distance less that person get the wrong idea. My brother told me that, which I think is so damn true. I just ask my brother why he dun want to go US to study for his course. He told me the system there is different from here. So why she still want to study there. It really puzzle me sia.

Sianz sia. Later work at 5pm which mean I can only go home earliest at 1am!!! Haiz my life sux.

Yesterday went ION to look for damei and xiaomei coz they working there. Meet them for lunch. Haha the shopping centre is damn big la. After lunch I shop around alone and didn't buy anything. And sisters take care of yourselves leh. Especially you leh xiaomei. Later next time when I go for my theraphy. Then I will suan you liao. Wahaha.

Haha after that meet dennis and bernard at bugis. Accompany dennis to buy his stuffs. Those two are really gay sia. Buy things muz also buy the same.

Then went to meet Pear at her school coz accompanying her to her gathering. Seriously I dunno I went there for what sia. Coz I dun even know any of them. But went there is to protect Pear from that bastard. Talk to a few of her friends. And they seem to be nice person. After a while I was so bored that I keep playing her hp. After that walk around and went home coz I was too tired le.

Haha yesterday work for only a few hours only. My initial plan was to go home and sleep. But Pear suddenly sms me that she was very bored at home. Suddenly sms me how's my work, what am I doing now, what time I release etc. She must be damn bored sia coz she know I hate smsing people when I am working or out with my friend. Anyway meet her for a late lunch. Haha then went the supermarket. We really behave like small kid sia. Then we do something stupid which everyone was laughing at me. Damn paiseh can. Haha actually it was my idea. Went home after that coz I working early the next day.

Today work from 8 to around 6. Damn tired sia. I think I just worsen my back coz I keep helping others. Then refuelling pull out the nozzle and use too much strenght and knock onto the aircraft. Damn pain!!! POOR ME.

Haha finally can rest today. So early morning went for a short swim. Damn it man I almost drown coz I didn't do warm up excerise and got leg cramp. Lucky Jack was there to help me. Then afternoon meet the guys for lunch. Got lots of catching up to do since we split shift le and will be seeing each other less often. Evening meet up with Pear. We went to get my mum birthday present. This sunday is my mum birthday and this year I want to be a filial son. So buying some thing for her. But I know her reply will be the same as last year which is : "find a girlfriend and bring her home to let me have a look." Haha sounds like all the mum in this world. And you know what is the most funny thing??? It was Pear who reminded me that my mum birthday is this sunday.

I have thought of giving up but it's really very difficult for me. It's actually very easy to forget someone. All you have to do is stop contacting that person. I have try that before and it really work. But this time, it is impossible for me to do that coz I having been seeing this person very often lately. Everytime I told myself "ok it's time to let it go, it's impossible for us to be together coz I have already try everything and she still don't get the message." But the moment I meet her, my heart keep saying "go for it, this is my chance to let her know of my feeling." So can any one of you tell me what I should do to completely give up. And what is worse is why can she admit she got feeling for me. Even an outsider can see that. Haiz must be the things that I have done in the past which result in the insecurities inside her. Haiz!!!!

This week damn boring coz straight away went home after work. Yesterday went for my physiotheraphy. And damn tough and tiring. Tml off day for me. So going to relax myself sia. Going out with the guys to eat. Haha I really gain weight la. Sianz.

I am going to be qualified this saturday which mean more responsiblity for me. Stress man. And I dunno how long I can last. My slip disk is seriously affecting my work. I am no longer as fast as before. Hopefully it won't get worst. Coz I have stop taking painkiller. I am afraid of the side effect. What to do leh???

Dying to hear your voice saying you love me. I rather be alone if I know I can't be with you.

***Call me stupid or idiot but I wait for four days from 5pm to 8pm. But you nv turn up.***

Shit sia tml need to work. I was only inform last minutes so all my plan for tml have to be cancel. Sorry guys. But we can still meet up during my off day. Which I think will be this coming friday. But ok la coz working morning shift so should be able to release at 2pm. Who wanna meet me for dinner???

For some reason, I really enjoy myself this weekend. I think is because of the company that I had. The feeling is getting stronger every minutes spent with her. But I not rushing anything. Previous lesson had taught me to take things slowly and not to make any hasty decision which would eventually harm both parties. Even though there isn't any status right now, I am still contend that she will always be by my side all the times. Everytimes when I called her to complain about my work, she never fail to encourage me. And everytimes when I am feeling sad, the first person that I will call is always her. Because she is the only one who truly know me and who is able to tolerate my childish behaviour. I am not asking for much, all I ever want is to see her every week. She is just like my painkiller which I need it to stop the pain. Without it I can't do anything at all.

To someone: I will take good care of my back and take my medication regularly, but please promise me that you will do the same too. I know of your insecurities and sufferings inside due to recent events, please be rest assured I will always be patiently waiting for the moment that you're ready to accept me and I will be there the very first to see you. And that's when I can hold you in my arms and saying the three words. Now I will just concentrate my time and focus on my work, so you do well for your studies and complete the course, make me proud!!! I hope we can build a strong foundation for the future and we shall achieve that together. My heart will be yours to hold, forever and ever.

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*****you are willing to give me a chance, meet me at serangoon MRT station tomorrow, 5pm. I will be there waiting for you everyday.*****

Haha juz a short entry before I leave this place. Wa lau yesterday kena bomb a lot of qns by Pear mum. Feeling damn stress la. Haha I am the first guy that Pear bring over to stay over night. Woohoo so honour sia. And she say I have her approval. Figure it out yourself guys. Haha woke up 7am sia coz SOMEONE make junior lick my face. And she keep jumping on my bed that I can't slp anymore. Then the gals came in at 10am. Play balak and I was winning almost all their money until they do stunt. They say loser have to eat some disgusting stuffs. And Tiff keep coming out with stupid ideas and keep asking alot of sensitive qns. But I purposely lose 1 round coz.....hehe. Haha I can only say I did something.

HAHA I am a kuku. Before I left for work, I was so confident that I got everything. Then on Harold car, I REALISED I FORGOT TO BRING MY SHOE. HHAHAHAHAHAHA. Quickly call pear to go to my house to take for me. Yes she got my house key coz she is my housekeeper. HAHA. But she bring my slipper instead coz she can't find my shoe. Come on la how many times have you been in my room liao. EH that sentence sound a bit weird. HAHA only pervert will think dirty.

Anyway went to sing with her after work coz my work end early today. First time I sang alot. First time I truly enjoy myself while singing. AND MOST IMPTLY FIRST TIME I NEVER SING OUT OF TUNE!!!! Haha took alot of funny, disgusting, ugly and of coz lovely pic with her. As usual given my character I wun post sensitive photo. Haha I was soo high that I dun even know sia. Haiz she saw the ugly side of me. Haha I think next time when I go singing, the maximum people that I will bring is 2. So that I will sing alot.

Then went Meritus Mandarin for dinner. Went to the chatterbox again for the famous chicken rice. Although it's a bit expensive but it is worth it and depending on who you are eating with. If you are eating with the wrong person then of coz not worth it la. Haha went shopping together and I BROUGHT HER A DRESS coz it think it looks too good on her le. It would be a waste not to buy. Haha while on the way back to her house, she want to refuel her car but she dunno which fuel to top up coz it was her brother who always does that. HAHA she damn cute la.

Staying at her place tonight coz my home is so empty and quiet la. Yesterday night I was so scare that I can't sleep at all coz my whole family in Malaysia now. You can't except me to ask her over to my home to stay overnight ma. Her mother will kill me sia. And also tml aide and tiff coming over to her house for balak session. Sianz the guys kena duty so can't come over coz it would be damn fun with the whole gang together. Then tml evening gg bowling with her and watch transformer 2 again. After using her mac book to blog, I think I want one too. Hahaha.

Haha I also discuss her 21st bdae party detail with her. I am planning and organising everything. I know it is a bit early but I want her to have the most memorable party she ever had. I mean come on la you only get to celebrate 21st once leh. And I dun want the party to screw up like last year. Haha coz you know some people cfm show attitude de like last minutes say cannot. HAHA so must save a lot of money this month le. No more treat from me le. Haha I also want it to be fun, interesting and exciting so I want the party to have a theme. Crack my brain so long and finally come out with couple theme. So those attending must bring the opposite sex with you. Even if you are "you know", no exception. Must be fair to all. Haha must help Pear find one damn handsome guy to be her partner. I think I fit the criteria and I don't mind sacrificing myself. Wahaha. But anyway I think for our gang, you guys should know who is her partner liao. And she damn crazy sia coz she want to invite my friends and NS buddies. Wa lau but I scare the atmosphere will be weird leh.

Have been busy this week. One day can work until 14 hrs sia. That is why I do not have enough rest and fall sick today. My fever was 38.2 sia and got sore throat. And what is worse is my whole family went malaysia and left me alone at home. Haha lucky still got someone. Ya la is Pear. Haha she made ROJAK porridge for me coz I can't swallow anything. She really anyhow add stuff lor and the porridge really look like rojak. But it taste good. Haha she really behave like my mum sia. Keep asking me to take my medicine and go to bed. But have to work tml. Haiz I am really tired liao.

Book an appointment at Alexandra hospital next Tuesday coz mindy want me to stay there to allow the doctor to check my back . Wa lau stay there for what sia. Haha on that day I cfm do stunt coz it really is wasting my time la. I already went to TTSH specialist and went to my base MO for review le. And both say my condition quite severe but I noe what I am doing. I dun need anyone to tell me what to do. Seriously I wun go for any operation. The most I go is theraphy. At most in future I am wheelchair bound and dun have to walk anymore. But abit tough on you all la coz you all have to push me around. Haha I think I have done too much evil things le that is why karma have befall on me.

I have already let go of the US thing. No point feeling trouble all about it. Maybe it was not fate to be me in the first place. I want to live a happy man. And people I got one request. Please don't give me any special treatment because of my back injury. It will make me feel kinda useless. Haha treat me a normal and you guys can continue to bully me if you all want except for Pear. Wahaha.

This is the worse two days of my life. Tuesday I only work for 2 hrs so quickly went there to the party. And I was damn fuck up. Pear was there too and she too was damn piss off. Coz some stupid guy give her the shirt " leave him and you are better off without him." And they keep pestering here to wear it. And I was beside her only. So are they implying that I am not good enuff for her??? And what is worse is she gave in to them and wore it. People like Pear who is known for her good temper is also piss off leh. So can you blame me for being so angry.

Then the US thing has already been approve and all I need are 5 signatures. Which I got eventually. But now I can't go anymore!!! Coz I went to collect my MRI scan yesterday and the doctor told me I really got a slip disk and it's quite severe. Physiotheraphy is not going to help me to recovery and I need to go for operation to cease the pain. He even told me that for the time being I am not suitable to do technician job. Fuck sia but I like my job now. And no matter what I am not going for the operation coz of the high risk. I mean come on la, who would want to go for operation that has high risk. I am talk about my life here leh. So went back to tell the IC and he immediately remove my name from the US list.

Fuck man I lose so many things in 2 days. I might as well lose this pathetic life of mine. I got nothing to lose coz I am left with nothing now.

YEAH!!! Finally went to see transformers 2. And the movie was damn nice. Haha I will really regret it if I never go and see such a fantastic show. Hmm should I go and see again??? Anyway went to see with damei and xiaomei. Initially we wanted to see the 11am show but we will end up sitting different place so I chose the 1145 show. Went to subway for erm early lunch. Haha now I know why damei want me to sit in the middle le. Then halfway through the movie I kena cheated la. Xiao mei ask me to look carefully what happen next. And I actually listen to her. And guess what??? That scene only show the matrix turn to dust. But ok la at least she tell me which scene is funny so I can pay more attention to that scene.

HAHA after the movie walk around. Both damei and xiaomei brought something except me. Haha coz I got nothing to buy. I keep influencing xiaomei to buy dress or skirt. An I fail. Haiz. Haha next time buy anything muz ask damei to go coz she will help you check the thing before you pay. Haha had KFC for dinner. And shit sia I ate alot. Muz go and excerise liao. If not someone will say I am fat.

Ok in a few hours time is going to be Mindy 21st bdae. Happy bdae!!! Damn it man. I wun be there with her tml coz I working night shift. What to do leh. And Pear very damnn dirty minded. She ask me to give a bikini for Mindy bdae present. Ayway Sunday you all will know what I will be giving her. Haha.

Sad leh coz whole week is night shift which mean I will be going home damn late. And the whole world will be sleeping except me. No one to talk to again. Haha I bet with you all that I cfm will forget to take my medicine this entire week. I dunno wy such a simple thing and I will keep forgetting. Getting old le. I NEED A PA.

Haha today is a gathering day for me. Morning play balak with the RW guys. Has been so long since we last met. Haha Dennis and Bernard so gay sia. Every round also want to partner together. Then afternoon meet up with regina, my ex-colleague. Haha a bit awkward for me coz I used to like her. But that time she was attached so I didn't do anything. Even though she is single now, I also won't do anything coz there isn't any chemistry between us. Haha anyway we meet for 1 hrs only and I don't think we will be meeting in the future. Evening meet Mindy for dinner. Haha she ask me alot of question which made me feel guilty. Suddenly my heart tell me that she still care and it still mean a lot to her. Haiz....

Sian tml work at 3pm. Dunno end until wat time but they will give us one day off next week. It will be someday on the weekday. They say is either monday or friday but I predict should be on the friday. But week day very hard to jio people out lehz. Haiz.

Today release early again so went to play tennis with Pear, aide and Vincent. Haha kena thrash sia. Coz I didn't use my lucky ball. But I win Pear. But nothing to be proud coz it was her 1st time playing. Haha damn funny when we were playing. I was smsing and playing at the same time. One hand using my phone and the other holding the racket. Damn tiring coz multi-tasking. I may stop playing for a while coz I scare I may make my back worse. After that went Bedok to eat. Aide went home 1st. While the 3 of us went Parkway parade. We wanted to go siglap for a drink but I working tml so cancel that plan. On the way home listening a lot of their advice. Suddenly most of my friends don't want me to go US. Coz I will be gone for 2 whole years. Suddenly all the care and concern I have receive make me dun want to go. Sianz how sia???

Fuck sia I want to watch transformer. Who wanna watch with me??? I pay for the ticket!!! Haha.

Shit sia I haven't buy her bdae present and I got no time to buy. Siao liao and she will be back by tml. This time cfm will quarrel again. Haiz sick and tired of all these shits liao. I want to end it so badly but now is not the correct moment.

Haha I actually took my medicine today!!! Can you guys believe it. Is becoz someone called at around 5.30am to remind me to take it. I am sooo damn touched la. But thanks anyway. I really appreciate the effort.

Nabe today kena backstab sia. But I am not that stupid either so I fight back for myself. And I escape the punishment. I learnt to protect myself the hard way. He may not like me becoz of it but do you think I care coz it was he who backstab me first. You provoke me and I will make sure I give you hell.

As usual work end early today. So I quickly went home to change coz meeting Pear. Haha we went to the SAF Yacht Club at Changi. Haha sit in her SELFISH car. We kind of lose our way there and have to ask around. Haha I went there to find out the cost to get a Powered Pleasure Craft Driving Licence (PPCDL). If I pass and get the licence, I can drive a boat or a yacht out to sea ON MY OWN in future. And the fee is only 300 plus. Very tempting sia. As usual pear would start nagging at me for wasting such money. Haha she say something damn funny. She said " you want to be pilot, want to learn to drive and now you want to learn to drive a boat. So you air, land and sea also want la?? Really greedy leh." Haha getting promotion soon and all that is left is the signature and that is!!! Haha so must celebrate!!!

After that went to town to meet up with aide. Haha super damn long nv see her le. I think the last time I saw her was during my 18th birthday. She has become pretty le. Haha most imptly she is single. Haha no la I am not so desperate la. Haha then walk around and joke of alot of stupid damn shit. All is becoz of stupid Pear la. Haha we found out aide play tennis too. Then Pear keep saying to me " eh you got chance le." Wa lau U siao leh!!! I think is karma coz I keep trying to matchmake xiaomei with one of her guy friends then now Pear trying to matchmake me. Is this what they call a cycle??? But nonetheless still ask her out for a tennis game tml. Haha Pear is coming along coz I force her too. I shy la. Hmm opportunity is in front of me leh. Haha no la I am not interested in her. I like chuan wei now. Haha RIGHT WEI ER????

In the evening Pear and I went kahtib coz my cousin live there. May be staying with him for next week coz his house is quite near to my camp. Then that idiot Pear did something REALLY IDIOT, STUPID AND CHILDISH. I went to the 7-11 to buy drink and choco. While I was paying for my stuffs she suddenly throw one pack of condom on the table and say "eh is this true that it can been blown as a ballon. Buy leh I want to see." And the cashier was laughing la. Quickly pay my stuff and get out of that damn place. Wa lau eh Pear you really noob leh!!! I am really scared that tml she will do stunts again during the tennis game.

Sianz this saturday working again. And they give me a day off on weekday. Siao weekday how to find people to go out sia. All only free on weekend leh. Somemore her bdae is coming and I haven't even buy her present. Coz I dunno what to me. Idea anyone??? I still think single is the best coz no worry, no burden and definitely no unhappiness. Haha won $300 again. This sunday cfm jio people out for balak le since lady luck is with me now. Wahaha.

Sianz today end work early. Wanted to jio people out but I got MRI scan in the afternoon. So stay at home the whole day. Worse is thur and fri also like that sia. Who want to go out with me???

Wa lau today forget to bring my medicine AGAIN. Have to bear the pain AGAIN. Haha know why??? Coz I go and carry all the heavy stuffs. I AM REALLY DAMN FORGETFUL!!! Haha I need a PA. Will get a treat from me once a month. But the PA cannot keep scolding me. Haha interested party pls come and interview.

Name: Daniel Yap
Horoscope: Aries
Birthdate: 8-4-1987
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