You won't break your promise again, will you?

Saturday, October 4, 2008

I'm alright. I'm still a happy boy. Did shopping therapy with Pear today. We went Clarke quay and she's so sweet. She found a chance to sneak off and secretly went to buy my favourite chocolate - kinder bueno. Thanks for your hilarious letter too! Love you my best friend.

I want to dedicate this to all my friends. Hope you know who you are.

There are a lot of thoughts going on in my head now but how do I put them down in words and sentences? Hmm… I’ll try my best =)

Life is full of choice and I always feel that happiness is a choice. If you are feeling sad, you can’t blame it on stuff like chemical imbalances. It’s not gonna go away by taking a few pills. Ultimately, it’s all in the head and it’s all up to you to make yourself feel better.

You just gotta learn how to tame your mind. I’m still learning. Life is simple. Yet very often, I find myself reading too much into things. I let my mind wander into places it shouldn’t be and then… bad things happen. I start to think life ain’t good to me. Or worse, I start to doubt people’s intention - their genuine intentions. It’s not fair to them and I’m sorry if I did that to you.

Such circumstances could have avoided if I had just practiced a bit of restriction, like telling my mind ‘Okay… This is as far as you should go…’, or ‘I’m done being sad for the day’ because deep inside, I know that most of it just ain’t true. This way, I could save a lot of unhappiness. Time is precious, why spend it being depressed?

There are days I wake up feeling like I have nothing. There are days I wake up feeling I have everything. Today, I wake up thankful.

Thankful I have hair on my scalp, eyes that see, nose that smells, mouth that talks, limbs that move. Thankful I have shelter over my head, clothes on my body, food and water in the kitchen. Thankful I have a loving family, amazing friends and for being healthy. I’m thankful for the heart that loves and not hate.

Of which, I am most thankful for the gift of sight, which enables me to see the beauty in this world, in people, in life. Forget pain and sadness, love is all around.

I am luckier than the many millions and billions in this world. Today, I choose to be happy. And I wish everyone will choose to be happy. And I wish everyone will have the gift of Faith, Hope and Charity.

Love each day people. Life is short. Cherish every moment. You do not feel depressed because you feel depressed. You have a choice to be happy. And you are happy because you want to be happy. Look around you. Look at yourself. Aren't you contented?? You will realised you are much lucky than you thought.

To my friends out there, if you are still feeling depressed, then you have missed a day of happiness. So think again. I'm lucky to have you all in my life. The friendship we shared is true. We know it, at least I know it=) Love you guys.

WOW!! Time really passes too fast. I was lamenting of how slow life is. And now it is already October! It feels like I was still in poly yesterday. It's terrifying of how the clock can go on for 1314000 seconds in 365 days.

A lot of stuffs happened this year. But DUH! It’s almost one year, so obviously there will be countless of occasions when I have cried, laughed, hated, loved, whined, complained, screamed, pained. Thinking back, I have met a lot of nice people. Because of the time spent in Techmex, this IPP changed my outlook in life partly because Mindy work there too. I started to cherish each day more. After a hectic day at work, I can’t help but to feel so lucky with all my loved ones in my life.

I'm thankful to people who have helped me in one or another way. I'm grateful to people who pulled me up when I fell. I'm gratified to people who encouraged me and supported me through times which seems so wrong to me. I'm appreciative to people who cared and concerned about me throughout the whole year. I felt so loved with people who love me. I felt contented with all of you in my life.

Every single one of you, no matter you are someone whom we met at one of those crossroads in life or someone whom stayed in my life. You left a deep foot print in my life and I will never forget you. Too many people to mention here. Every single person who know me, I'm glad to meet you in my life. Because I have loved life, I shall have no sorrow to die. =) . Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile. Till now, I don't have much regrets. I will learn to love each day even more. I will even appreciate sadness, because of unhappiness, I know what's happiness is!

These are the resolutions that I have made on the first day of 2008:
(1) Love Each Day.
(2) Be happier! Move on with no sadness.
(3)Hope Mindy will accept me as her boyfriend. (Even though I know it will be soon)
(4) IF 3 fail, then I will continue with my search of my Ms Right! Please appear faster.
(5) Hope my result will get better!
(6) Change my habit of being Mr Hot Temper (I'm still trying la. Haha)
(7) Pack my room more. And make it a cleaner and tidy room.
(8) Clear the mess in my wardrobe.
(9) Go to Japan to see snow, or canada to see niagara falls=)
(10) Get my desired job which have been my dream!
(11) IF 9 fail, then hope I get into an UNI!
(12) Quickly get my car license.
(13) Keep in contact with dear friends. No drifting apart ok?
(14) Parents to errrrrr.... cool down and stop nagging.
(15) Change my handphone and mp3.
(16) To win 4D and ToTo.
(17) Go vacation trip with my friends! YEAPPEEEEE!
(18) Don't emo so much. Don't want to have sleepless night anymore.
(19) Love everyone on earth!
(20) Watch PS I LOVE YOU movie with Mindy.
(21) Enjoy life more. Live life to the fullest. Have no regrets...

Some of it had already been fulfil while others are still in the process. You guys may be wondering why I have so many resolutions. Well because I'm 21 this year, so I'm having 21 resolutions! And I will have this 21 resolutions kept in my mind. And hopefully, I can make all of them come true one by one. Then I will smile and hug myself. Haha, isn't that what resolutions is all about?

What's the happiest thing that happened to me this 10 month I have been pondering about that recently. Well the best thing is 100308 though =) It's a sweet day. Some of you should know why. But the happiest thing is... ermm tell you all when I found out the answer. What's yours peeps?!

Hopefully, I'll have a happier countdown to 2009 next year with someone special beside me too! HeHe.=)

Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love, to work, to play, and to look up at the stars, although there isn't any stars tonight. But you know they are always there, right? <3

Why beautiful things just don't last so let's make 2008 an unforgettable year for us! Hey, everyone who is reading this...I love you all and don’t forget about me ok??

; You promised me the sunrise,
under that tree at 1:25 AM ♥