You won't break your promise again, will you?

Friday, October 3, 2008

Haha 22 more days to enlistment. Having mixed feeling now. I will be sad coz will be missing my friends and family. Feel happy coz at least got something to do le.

Tue
Celebrate ee wen bdae on tue at amk. Went to catch a movie 1st with xueli, ee wen and huiyi. Haha we watch The House Bunny. The movie was damn funny sia. Quite a nice show and it is way better than the step brother. After that we wait for liqin to have dinner together. Initially we wanted to have fish and co but the queue was damn freaking long so we change to pizza hut instead. Then wait for the guys (jun wen, big ben, Shaun and jun yao) to show up. After cutting the cake some went home, some went town while I went kovan to find sy to get the F1 pass from her. The bus ride is damn boring la so I started smsing a lot of ppl. My bro and tiff scold me siao. And for the first time sy was waiting for me instead of me waiting for her. I stay with her for a while coz she was feeling quite emo. So we started chatting. Stay till around 1a.m to cheer her up. But that’s what friends are for ma. Pear asks me why I want to collect theF1 pass or am I juz using an excuse to see sy. Pls la she and I are history le. It’s no longer possible between us le. Juz dunno why u guys keep talking about me and her. And I want to collect the F1 pass is bcoz I like the pass. That all!!

Wed
Meet ah poon and Vincent in the morning for breakfast. Haha they need to book in at night. Then we went to play pool together. I am getting rusty le coz haven been playing for like 6 months le. Then went to TM for lunch coz meeting those gals there. We talk and joke a lot. I am the only guy there that is still not botak. It’s been quite a while since we last gather. But really enjoy the outing with them. Haha.

Readers can ignore the following message coz it is for someone else.

To you:

I know that you are feeling very emotional and terrible this few months. This period of time must have been really difficult for you. I finally understand what you meant by you missed the past and regret your decision. I have tried and you know I have tried everything I could to save the relationship. But I just couldn’t do enough. Love takes two not one. It is all over. Over for you and me. So all we can do now is to get over it and move on. I mean I have to move on, otherwise what else can I do?? And like I say before if you are feeling bored, sad or lonely, I am just a call, sms or e-mail away. I will still be there for you as a friend. But if you are asking for more than a friend that is something I can no longer do. The things that you are doing now will only make me confuse. The more you try to do anything, the more you will make me distant myself from you. I have already made up my mind and nothing is going to change it. I have given up and I suggest that you do the same too. Otherwise it will only make you feel worse. I treasure our friendship now. I know that you will definitely meet someone who is special and destined for you, someone who is worthy of your love. And I know that someone will not be me anymore.

The reason we can’t be together is because we both know that it is difficult for us to be there for each other when we are feeling down. Like where were you when I need you the most and likewise where am I when you need me the most. You were nowhere in Singapore. In fact you are out there on the other side of the world enjoying yourself. When I say that I don’t blame your job, well actually I am blaming it. I am not asking you to quit your job for my sake and I am not that selfish either. It is your dream to be in that job and you have work so hard for it. And I will really be a jerk if I ask you to quit your job. Please don’t quit your job now after reading this message because this is just my own opinion. It does not represent everyone view. It is definitely not worth it to quit your job now after all the hard work and efforts that you have put in. Right now you have my support and do your best to become the greatest SIA stewardess. Everything is already over. There is no point talking and thinking about it anymore. Your name no longer stands for “Mum I Need Daniel Yap”.

But I will always remember those happy times that we spent together. Those times that I had with you are really the happiest moment of my life. You really changed me then. Those days with you is really like a fairytale to me. And the day you left me is like a nightmare. Right now, I am still adapting to life without you loving me, motivating me and quarrelling with me etc. But still life has to go on for you and me too. And I hope that life will be better for you even though I won’t be there to cook for you, to love you, to take care of you and to do stupid things with you etc. I am not going to cry right now because I know that even if I cried it won’t change a thing. Even if we could turn back the time, I think the outcome will still be the same. It is very hard to find back what you have lost. Fate can be very cruel sometime because it has separated a couple who used to love each other so damn much. Neither of us can be blame for what had happened today. It wasn’t our fault. It’s just too bad that it had to be a sad ending. Please continue to stay strong and love each day. Do not forget that there are still people out there who are concern about you. Lastly, thank you for the wonderful memories and because of these memories my life will certainly change for the better.

; You promised me the sunrise,
under that tree at 1:05 AM ♥