Monday, December 15, 2008
Someone force me to blog this so this is going to be a boring entry. So people I think you can ignore this entry. Haha.
I still remember the first time I saw her was September 2007. She was working part time at techmex which is my IPP company. When I first saw her, I thought that she was those kinds of girls who are very lazy and not serious about their work. All they ever care about is playing, clubbing and don’t do work. In other word bu zhen jin. Haha but my opinion of her start to change as the days goes by. I notice that she always complete her work on time and do what she is supposed to do. Then one of my poly friend who is in the same company as me during IPP told me that he likes her. (Some of you should know who). He says that when he saw her, he will be full of energy etc. Shall not go into details of what he told me. Haha. Anyway I try to help him by finding her Friendster account. When I found it I gave the link to my poly friend. So he went to add her. The following things that I am going to say may be a bit confusing so try as hard as you can to understand it. Ok she was quite surprise that my poly friend went to add her on Friendster. So she went to ask him why he adds her and how he knew her Friendster account. And this is what my poly friend reply “My friend went to find your Friendster account and gave me the link so I went to add you.”(This is what he told me when I ask him what he reply back to her) And do you all know what the problem here is? The only friend that my poly friend had in techmex is me. So obviously she will know it is me who had nothing to do and went to Friendster to find her account and gave the link to the poly friend. That is when she thought I like her and that explains why I went to search for her account. However, during that time I don’t like her and I am only trying to help my poly friend. Unfortunately she had no idea. So she was waiting for me to make my move but I didn’t do anything. So she decided to make the move herself. She keeps doing things to get my attention. For instance I always like to adjust my chair to the lowest and while I was away for lunch she will secretly went to adjust it to the highest. Again during lunch she will go and mess my laptop and desk. But unknown to her I was very angry with the person who keep messing my things EVERYDAY. And at that time I have no idea she was the culprit. (In case some of you are wondering how I know these things, well she told me herself when we were together) But even if she didn’t do any of these things I think I will still fall in love with her. I found myself attracted to her every single day. Secretly peeping at her to see what she is doing(not pervert) and every morning I will always look at the entrance to see if she is coming for work. I still remember her secretly putting a small slip of paper into my drawer. I never tell anyone about this because the content of the paper was crap la. It is not worth mentioning. And I think I am also very stupid that time. She will always sit the empty chair next to me when she is taking a small break or talking to her friend. I always try to act cool when she sat next to me. Come to think of it I think it’s a stupid behaviour. I still remember one very weird behaviour of her in techmex. Every time when I went to the pantry, she will suddenly walk in front of me and say hi to me.
When she left the company near the end of October, I felt lonely and empty. Even after my IPP I always keep thinking about her and even dream of her. So I decide to add her on MSN. And when I add her, I don’t have the courage to talk to her. But guess what?? She started the conversation first. From early November to late December, we keep talking only on MSN. We did plan to meet up but the plan was always screw up due to the never ending projects and tests. And finally during Christmas we did meet up. I found out something during that day. Cannot mention here. And I got a confession to make too. I gave her cookies during Christmas and told her that it was made by me. Well actually I lie it was made by my friend. And I should have tried it first before giving it to her. The cookies were so hard la. We also have a wonderful countdown together at Marina. And the following months we have been going out. We did have some minor argument. And all this thank to some backstabbers. That is when I learnt something “don’t trust anyone easily even if he/she is very close to you.” As a result only a handful of people know about my progress with her. We celebrate valentine together at a later date. Shall not say why. And the two of us are very funny man. It’s like we can read each other mind. We both brought a watch for each other. And I also bake a cake for her during valentine. And for some reason it taste like bacon. This is the first time I did so many things for a girl. Haha.
On 10th march 2008 we were officially together. During these period of times is the happiest time of my life. We did many things together and learn many things together. I still remember one very funny incident. She thought my birthday was on the 8th march. So she plans to celebrate it for me. And I was very evil because I did not tell her that she remembers the date wrongly so I just play along. And we still countdown to 8th march together. And when I told her the truth, her reaction was damn funny. I will remember it for the rest of my life coz it was really funny. She did a lot of darling things too. For instance, she went to tick off a boyfriend for neglecting his girlfriend coz the guy keeps playing PSP. She went to change her food when the guy at Burger King serves her cold food. You don’t see girl doing that in Singapore. That is why I like her. Haha I don’t like girl who do things normal instead I like girl who do things differently. All I can say is she is an interesting girl. Because of her training and job, the time that we spend together is shorter and shorter. And in the end it is over for us. Do I feel sad? Yup definitely and pain too. I love her and I love her like I haven’t love anyone and I didn’t even think it was possible to love someone this much. Till now I still want to be with her. But is it even possible? I don’t know the answer but deep down in my heart I know it is impossible. If we are back together, there are many things which both of us have to sacrifice and we don’t want to be selfish. I am content that she returns what I feel and I do know it is there.
Oh ya did I mention I like girl with her hairstyle? I am especially attracted to girls with that kind of hairstyle. Haha so don't be surprise if I keep looking at girls with that kind of hairstyle.
; You promised me the sunrise,
under that tree at 12:15 AM ♥
