Wednesday, November 25, 2009
I just don't get it leh. I am really super pissed off. I hate people accussing her of doing something which she never did at all. And stop saying I am too blind to see it. Whatever has happened has already happened. There is no turning back. Don't always blame me. I did gave chances but again all I get was disappointment. Why do I always have to be the one to bow down? I admit I am wrong. I have apologise and done everything I could. But what have you done? How did you handle the situation? And still have the cheek to blame me when things turn so sour and ugly. Who is the one who have been doing alot of things to solve the problem and who is the one who have been doing nothing at all. All you ever did was involve other in. And what is worse is you did something which really pissed me off. You know I hate it when people lie to me, treat me as a fool and most definitely give my e-mail and hp number away to stranger. And stop giving the same excuses over and over again. Coz it is damn fucking stupid. When things turns for the worse, have the courage and admit some of the mistake and not push everything to ME. You say I need some self-reflection but I think you are the one who need it. I try to play nice but you still want to ignore everything. If that is how you want to play then so be it. Serioulsy man I don't even care a damn fuck about how you and them think of me. You can tell whatever bullshit about me to them as you like. I just want you to know that you are starting to get on my nerve. You haven't seen what I am capable of yet. Don't make me come to that stage.
Mindy, I am really sorry that I have doubt you before. And let you suffer all these injustice. But rest assure that I will do whatever it takes to clear your name. Even if it means I have to sacrifice something. You don't deserve all these. If I really have to choose, I will side with you. Coz at least you willing to take the initiative to show concern to me when I am feeling down and take care of me when I need wheel chair to move around. You are always there for me not them. I am not blind coz I realise that through action. I really appreciate all the things you have done for me. Going with me to see doctor when you jolly well know that hospital bring you bad memory because of that incident. Going with me for my physio whenever you are free. Whenever I admit to hospital, you are always there to visit me and to scold me. Buying foods for me when you know I can't move around much. Calling me to console me when I am feeling sad. Giving me encouragement when I feel like giving up. Giving me tution about the aviation industry coz I need it for my work. Giving me a wonderful 21st birthday. Always reminding me to take my medicine when you know I will forgot. Discourage me from playing tennis because you scare I will end up in hospital again. Always find ways to entertain me when I am feeling bored. Always buy kinder bueno for me coz you know it will brighten my day. Always give into my unreasonable demand. Always have to tolerate my hot temper coz choose to keep quiet. Helping me to quit smoking compeletly. Always help me to destress after a stressful day at work. Bringing me to places where I don't even know exist in singapore. Always give me advice which greatly help me. Always do the right things at the right time. Whenever I work super early shift, you will give me a wake up call. The things you have done go on and on and on. So much that I can even make a book out of it. I am so guilty for the way I treat you in the past. Even though we can't be together, I am glad that we can be very close friend. It is because of you I realise the true meaning of friendship.
Chuan wei, I also want to thank you for being a really great buddy. Always let me bully you. Wahaha. Ok la I try not to bully you MUCH in future ok. Actually muz also thank a few people la. Like Liqin who is willing to listen to my complain about some people. Sorry for boring you. Jack and kevin for always bringing me for desert. LTC for always doing stunts to entertain me.
; You promised me the sunrise,
under that tree at 11:04 PM ♥
