Saturday, December 26, 2009
Got a lot of comments about my style of smsing, blogging and msning. They said it is becoming more and more like mindy. Well muz be the influence coz I spent most of my time with her. But she really disappoint me last night.
Haiz. Sometimes I really wish you could be abit more understanding. Everyone knows that there is nothing going on between me and xinying. But why can't you believe me. Just because of one stupid joke and one photo and you have to question me like a criminal??? What were you even thinking???They were just teasing us for goodness sake. It is just some pure entertainment becoz we are bored. Nothing else.
Did you see me questioning you when there was one photo of you leaning very close with a guy call choo junrong??? Actually not only one but a few more. There is this photo where the two of you pose like couple. And your friends keep saying both of you are having underground relationship. After all these, did you see me questioning you??? NO!!! And do you know why??? Is becoz I knew all these were some plain silly jokes. People come up with it for the sake of some entertainment. And I trust you. But when the same thing happened to me and what have you done??? You treat me as a criminal and bomb me with so many questions.
Do you know why I untagged some of the photo from my facebook. It is becoz you hate me standing so close to this person or posing so close with that person. So I untagged the photo to prevent any misunderstanding. I gave in to you becoz I do not want you to be upset over something which never happen in the first place. But instead of trusting me, you actually suspect that I am flirting with other girls or I am having fling behind your back. Am I that kind of guy??? Don't you have any confidence in me at all???
What I am trying to say is you are very important to me. No one can replace the position that you held in my heart. But I need to have a balance of male and female friends. Those female friends are really juz friends. I only treat them as sister or as a really good friends. It is impossible for me and them to go beyond that becoz I already have you. Even though I told you not to put so much feeling in me and we should stick to juz dating and no status, I still won't betray you. I have my principal too. Once I am dating someone, I will only date that person. I am not an unfaithful person. You should know that. Yes I have change alot recently but something will never change.
If you are lacking confidence in me becoz I chose not to have any status, well I have my reason. The reason is not becoz there is another girl. Is juz that we have patch and break a few times. And you need to give me times. But i can assure you that there are no other girls.
Right now, what I need the most is your support and love but you are in bombay. Do you have any idea how much I miss you??? Come back to me soon ok??? Shall we stop fighting and live peacefully??? I am really sorry that I shouted at you yesterday. It was suppose to be a happy occassion but I screwed it all up. Can you forgive me???
I miss seeing you laugh for no reason. I miss seeing you smile. I miss listening to your stupid jokes. I miss you driving me around. I miss your blurness. I miss fishing/prawning with you. I miss brushing your teeth. I miss smelling your bad breath the first thing in the morning. I miss letting you smell my armpit. I miss your voice. I miss singing with you. And most importantly I miss your love. I am always here waiting for you.
; You promised me the sunrise,
under that tree at 11:35 PM ♥
