Sunday, March 7, 2010
Ironic isn't it. I was the one who suggested that we should end it but I still can't get over her. This is not what I had in mind. I want her back so much. But I know I can't. I felt so stress and I need some breathing space. I am trying to be happy. No I should said I forced myself to be happy. The laughter and the smile is all so fake. How long can I continue acting??? I try to be strong in front of everyone. Looking as if it didn't affect me, looking as if I had no regret etc. But it really matter to me. I drink to get myself drunk to forget her. But it is not helping. It just prove that I still love her so damn much. But I can't face her. After all the things that had happened. I admit I am still disappointed in her. But my love for her is still strong. We still talk to each other. But every time whenever we talk on the phone, I felt like saying " precious I miss you, come back to me will ya?"
Tell me what should I do??? Bang my head to the wall so that I will have memory loss??? Disappear for a while to sort things out??? I really need some advise.
; You promised me the sunrise,
under that tree at 3:09 PM ♥
